Holding on through the storm...

Ok. So I'm glad to share a little GOOD in the midst of all of our chaos. Again, I'm intentionally keeping this from Facebook because I prefer less people know my business. Whoever reads here, must have some serious interest and not just in gossip :)

As I mentioned in my last post, this summer Joseph and I will transition to a permanent separation. Because of this I have had to line out a few things - with the Lord's favor and leading of course! You may have read on facebook that I purchased a new/very used car. It's a '97, but I'm in love with it :D. My mom and I have decided that for the short term at least, the girls and I will be living in one of her houses. Mom and I will get to help each other a good bit this summer. Part of my willingness to move back to the metroplex involved whether or not the girls would be able to attend Trinity (where I went to school). I am happy to say that not only will they get to go to Trinity (TCA) next year, but that I will also be working there! I will be helping in a few roles around the school - like in the secondary lunch room. But my main function will be at the Eagle's Next (After school program) Coordinator. I will be in charge of the after school program at Trinity! YAY. And Grace and Ava will be able to be in there with me.

What all this means:

• Though I will be traveling almost 60 miles a day, I will only have to do the round trip ONCE. 
• I will not have to find childcare because I will be at the school with them. 
• I will get to have the 12 month pay out option. This will divide my salary over 12 months instead of 9. (straight talk: get paid for Christmas and summer!)
• I will have every day off that the girls have off! 
• My only real worries will be if one of them is sick or if my car breaks down.. so lets pray for healthy children and for my car to stay in good working order :) 

I know there is still a lot of "bad" going on, but I am so thankful for the favor God continues to show me and how He truly DAILY takes care of me. I'm glad to have something to look forward to next year - I'm feeling a little bit like things will be OK. Keep praying! Loving the blessings!

<>< Kara

"The time has come," the Walrus said, "To talk of many things.."

It has been a while since my last post - Many changes have happened and many more are to come.

Time for Kara's Crazy Rambling:

Since high school I have had particular difficulty in keeping my mouth shut. It's so hard for me to keep things hidden. When I do, I feel like I'm not being genuine. I like being transparent. I like being able to say exactly what I mean and exactly what I think - it's even better when I can say it with some tact and delicacy. What I say is "the truth" as I see it. I realize "the truth" is relative and that it changes. For instance - I might once have said that my favorite color is pink. That was a truth - It was The truth. Now I might say that my favorite color is green. The truth changed - but it was always the truth to me. The truth may change when more information is given or more of life has been experienced. I'm me. Like it or not. Love it or not. Believe it or not. I stand for what I believe in. If my stance for what I believe in causes you to not like me or think less of me - that saddens me, but most likely will not cause me to stop standing. PROVE me wrong in something that I stand for and I will gladly take a seat.

Random. I know. I may be random, but I'm always honest - to the extent that I see things and that the Lord allows me to see things.

Not sure why I felt the need to say all of that, except to get it off my chest. Saying what I think is quite cathartic for me. So all that to say.. I want to be open about my life - I Need Prayer. I want to make a difference. I want to be an inspiration and to leave some kind of legacy to people who have known me. I may be known as the person who stuck her foot in her mouth, but at least I did it with conviction Ha Ha.. I don't always live my life as gracefully as I would like. I often feel like a bumbling idiot, but hopefully it will all be for some GOOD.

So Now I've prefaced the fact that I'm about to be honest and blunt and probably lacking in tact, but I need to get this out there... 

To those who love me and my family - I would like to share with you a little bit of my life right now. Update you. I'm trying also to observe the privacy of others, whom I love. 

1. Many many things have occurred in the last 2  years which have now led to Joseph and I to separating once again. This is an effort in which we are cooperating - to keep things as peaceful and friendly as possible. This was decided several months ago and since we are getting closer to more obvious changes, I have decided to share a little bit of it here. 

2. I am at peace with this, though it is in NO way what I want. God has spoken very very clearly to me and I will do nothing but obey Him in this matter. 

3. Our girls have been very protected from our past. Neither of them have any recollection of our previous separations. I praise the Lord for that. I know people say that "they pick up on more than you think".. I am very convinced that our upcoming separation will be a complete shock to them. Please pray for them over the next several months as their lives change.

4. The girls and I will be moving back to Ft. Worth sometime this summer. Until an official move is made, we will also be "vacationing" there and staying with my mom. 

5. Please message me or call me if you feel led to. Please do Not discuss this in front of my children. And Please do Not post on my facebook wall about this. That is a public domain. Far less people read this, than read facebook. Email, call, or text me if you want to :) kthompsonchavis@yahoo.com  903-474-7378

The ONLY thing that could change this is the Lord. I do not limit Him in His ability to change myself or Joseph. None the less, it is my belief that this is a permanent separation.

Love you all and thank you for all of your prayers
Kara

Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

“Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

“Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Luke 12:22-34